unconditional love

On this fucking happy day.
:(

i guess sincerity counts for nothing.

maybe i owe you a lot from past karma
which is why i have to shed so many tears for you in this life.

and so many fucking songs remind me of you

i have never loved anyone so much in my life
ever.

i don't understand
and i don't think i ever will

funny cos i don't know
how to un-love you
even if i tell myself
logically
i should.

and even if i move on
the what-ifs
will always reside
in this deep dark corner
of my heart
and plague me.

how can love that runs so deep just end like that?

unless you never loved me
and that all i loved and believed in would just be a lie
and this hurts me even more
because i'm in too deep

and i hate myself for it.

unconditional love, what is?