Lost

I guess I lost who I was when I lost you. In a way, when it ended, I lost myself. And I see you happy now, it makes me happy too. Although I know I might never speak to you again, and we might never be friends again. And I always think about how sad it's become because we used to be so close, closer than anyone and anything I've ever been to in my life. And now, I can only feed off the miserable scraps of information you post behind a screen and an electronic wall, so I may know more, learn more, about you. I've always wondered if there was more, but I guess it's too late to tell. It's too late. Just like in your stupid song. I don't know, but somehow, I feel that a resolution has never been reached. Oh well, I hate being sappy now. Shit always happens to me, like it always had. I just really appreciated it when you were here for me. Although I've never told you, and you never knew. But I really appreciated you for everything. Now I have to fend for myself. I guess I always had to. I cannot form an emotional dependency on anyone. I have to look forward. Yes, I will. I cannot say if I miss you, I suppose I do. But oh well, there's nothing left to say, nothing more to be done. And all I can do is look forward. I don't feel a thing towards anyone anymore. I guess my heart is almost dead. And I've become who I always thought I'd never be when I was younger, when I was with you, and even before that. My heart is dead.

Simona
You're getting older
Your journey's been etched
On your skin

Simona
Wish I had known that
What seemed so strong
Has been and gone

I would call you up every saturday night
And we'd both stay out 'til the morning light
And we sang, "Here we go again"
And though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
In 1973
Singing, "Here we go again"

Simona
Wish I was sober
So I could see clearly now
The rain has gone

Simona
I guess it's over
My memory plays our tune
The same old song